"The Inner Child and Self-Love: A Journey of Healing and Understanding"

From a young age, I always heard my grandmother talk about "que pesar," which loosely translates to "what a pity" in English. She used this phrase to describe the hardships and needs we faced as children, highlighting the basic and essential necessities for existence. It took me a while to understand this concept, as I had no reference point. What intrigued me was that this phrase seemed to run in the family; everyone would say "que pesar," whether it was for one thing or another.

Growing up, I was surrounded by the love of my paternal grandmother, the hardships of life, and the collective sighs of "que pesar" from the community. As an adult, I find myself in a daily battle with this concept. After therapy and failed relationships, I've come to realize that "que pesar" is a part of my inner child—the child I speak to every day, trying to educate and discipline, as this child throws tantrums. A significant part of its structure is the "que pesar" mindset.

I've reached a point where I have to reprimand this inner child to avoid falling into the spiral that has led me to numerous situations for which I take responsibility. However, I cannot turn back time to change them. Through this internal search, I've also identified a lack of self-love. It's fascinating how the programming we carry in our "hard drive," whether cultural or familial, affects our behavior. At times, it's so ingrained in our personalities that it's challenging to see this spoiled child or the lack of self-love justified by social beliefs or cultural programming.

During a recent work meeting, a close friend shared with me her experience of reading a book called "Be Water," which taught her to silence that inner voice and not just listen to it but educate it. She referred to this inner voice as "The Inner Child." This voice can lead us to problems or even depression, frustration, and/or poor decision-making. In conclusion, the behavior of your inner voice (or Inner Child) may be the result of conditioning during childhood, but it can be educated when confronted.

I'm currently in the process of educating this little voice and showing it how wonderful we are in this colorful world called life.